you promised me starry night skies...*

yay!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 16:10:23 GMT

so news news
got a new cell for x-mas
715-347-7073...yay giving out the number...yay!
got a bunch other stuff...coo coo...
so i got new years day off...so that means...AMI CAN PARTY AND BLOW THIS FUCKING YEAR OUT THE DOOR!!!!!
good times...bad times...
its gone!!!!! and im gonna celebrate...
we are gonna party like its 2006!!! oooo another year...
this year has been good...summer was great, school was over...
but its past and im ready to let it all go...
so any good partys let me know or ill let yall know...
i got a cell now lol!!!
so i was thinking...
hotel rooms anyone?

aimes.

so baby ill spend christmas with you...

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:01:44 GMT

so its fucking crazy outside...
snowing like nucking futs...
its starting to look alot like winter...lalalalala!
whoa ok too much fucking x-mas music at menards...
thank god tomorrow is my last day and friday is finally a day off...
getting up at 3:30 in the morninh really works you, then going and lifting boxes the size of you really is a work out...
friday is x-mas shopping...
i gotta pick out nick a CD for our family x-mas party saturday...hmmm...
then my dad wants to pick out his stereo im getting him. my dad is really starting to like him. thank god. finally my dad likes one of my boyfriends.
but reallyi dont trust my dad to pick out his stereo...my dad has bad taste lol...and i dont know...hes crazy.
so i havent had a cig all day...and its not too bad actually, usually im freaking out by now...ill just ask my pa for some extra cash tomorrow $$$ and stop and get some...
so i work x-mas eve, new years eve and new years day...so fucking grand...no going out and celebrating the new year for amy...fuck that...ill maybe ask for new years off...say im going down somewhere with family...i want to party dammit...
anyways, im gonna go take a shower and lay down...3:30 is gonna come fast...

some news...

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 20:38:08 GMT

so its been a while...
nothing really too new...
i work at menards now. 5-9 in the morning mon-sat, fridays off...
yea its loads of fun really...its really tiring getting up at 3:30 in the morning...
yea i dont like to talk about it...im still tired
so now that all of us have jobs again. i havent been doing, much at all but sleeping then watching tv with nick. yea exciting life over hurrr...
i mean i love hanging out with my nicky poo, he makes it exciting...
but the whole tv thing, sometime there nothing on...damn whats there to do then....i wonder *thinks* ;)
but guess what im doing tonight. same damn thing i told you...
at least ill be with my hunny...love!
anyways. thats all i got. isnt too exciting but hey its life.

out*

damn....

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 03:26:12 GMT

i wish youd just go away.
get out of my head.
get out of my dreams.
get out of my memories.
please just make yourself fade away.
so i can finally breath.
so i can forget you and me.
i wish...
i just wish...
i could have you back...
i wish youd just leave...

feel like falling over...

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 13:19:44 GMT

so im damn tired.
im up way to early if you know me well.
yea 7:14...too early.
well two reason for this rude wake up.
one: i couldnt sleep worth shit last night
two: i have a interview at 8:30 at mernards.
joy.
so yea did i tell you im unemployed.
and im totally broke.
on to a lighter note....
brians band broke up yesterday. twas sad.
i loved them guys and all the band practices.
i miss all the crazy times...
now they are just memories, like everything else in my life.
wow...
i think im depressed or something. i need to sleep.
or im just always like this?
i dunno for me, i think im doing ok in life.
im happy. i rarely cry anymore. and im finally not alone.
sounds good to me.
even though the ghosts still haunt me.
fuckers

out*

thanks for september...

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:44:31 GMT

so another day at my new job...
it was fun we got to shampoo carpets...
tomorrow we start the demos for family and friends...yay...
i forgot to share...
yesterday we were coming home from our job and we were in jesse's car...
and then we were in the ditch...lol
gotta love winter, twas fun spinning and gliding into the drifts!
tonight i finally talked to Nick W after like a month.
man i missed that kid. he was my bestfriend since 7th grade.
why the hell i let a good friendship like that go...dont ask.
im just glad we are still good. hopefully we will do something tomorrow like we are supose to. i missed hanging out with him.
seems just like yesterday we were sitting in mrs. clarks study hall.
talking the entire hour. getting yelled at. ahh the highschool days.
today i did another spontaneous piercing, got my nose done.
yea out of blue, just went and did it. gotta love those.
hurt like a bitch though. that was my most painful one yet. ouch.
felt good afterward though.hehe believe me. feeling down? pierce something.

out*

time to walk before i run

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 02:30:03 GMT

so remind me why i like wisconsin?
i hate the fucking snow.
its only pretty at first, then it sucks balls.
anyways.
so today was the first day of orentation at my new job.
i work for Kirby. yes the vaccumn industry.
i sell vaccumn...sounds proud right?
well its great pay. the boss is kick ass and gorgeous may i add ;)
and my class is also kick ass.
and my first day, i made some new friends lol.
got a phone # too.
so i guess things could be looking up.
so i guess maybe my life can finally be whole again.
so i guess this is goodbye...ill miss you...

out*

summer wind will always be our song...

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 07:38:23 GMT

so moving on...
its not the best process in the world
but its life and sometimes you have to deal with it
even if you dont want to i guess.
its been a month and some now and i guess i finally need to move on.
stop thinking about him, stop worring if hes ok or if hes thinking about me.
if i havent heard from him in a month...i think hes over it.
so i guess so should i.
its hard when you were so in love with the person though.
if i had one more chance...
feels like he died or something.
but no hes alive as hell ever be.
and hes doing fine without me and i should be doing the same
i guess theres that saying theres more fish in the sea.
i just wish this fish would come back to me...
whoa that sounded dumb, but its the truth.
its so hard when everyone around you is so happy.
and you think, you use to be but now your not...
i wish i had like a mind block so i could block him out.
really...as much pain as im going through with not having him...
i wish i would of never met him...
but i guess i should be happy for had a chance to love someone that much.
well im 18yr old single girl with her heart totally shattered...
here i come world...bring me some new love that will put my heart back into place...

out*

i guess summer wind has come to a end...

fucking want some humpy!!!

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 04:36:30 GMT

so things are going great actually...
i mean im still lonely as fuck...
but i got some of my bestfriends back!
and we are finally pursuing our plans of moving in together...
yes the three of us are finally back together!
anyways. hopefully we can move before Jan. thatd be cool.
and work is work...im getting use to work now...
and im prolly getting a new car. yay! only 79 a month. fuckin yay!
and im working with the hottest guy around. yay.
but i still need some loving...sigh...god drop me a hot one in my lap please...just let me get some sucking sex for god/my sake...asshole. its not a sin...it makes me happy so therefore i dont think its a sin...just like pot...which is starting to wear off...damn...shit i gotta work tomorrow...joy joy joy...

aimes is out*

recent events

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 05:59:40 GMT

so my last couple of days have been pretty much crazy as fuck.
so i finally went to redgranite to see some old faces at brians new house.
it was cool...like everyone was there but then i walked into the NEW band room and saw him...i was like "whoo weirdness"...and he gave me a face like "whoo havent seen you in about 5 months, did you come back from the grave or did you just hate me that much kind of face" i never hated him. i hate myself for letting him go like how i did, but new love called...and then it bit me in the fucking ass again.
so nicks court is tomorrow. honestly im scared for him. even though sometimes when i think about him and the last 5 months i wasted on nothing, all i want to do it kill him. but when someone is going through hard times, no matter how much you want them to die, its hard to hate them at that time. so tomorrow while i sit at work...ill hope hes doing ok with things. so good luck buddy...no matter how much i hate you...
AND then out of nowhere Wed. this last week...one of my co-workers, who is 20...and happens to be sizzling...decides to have his friends stop by and ask for my # because hes too chicken...so then after work i go with them and chill...and everynight since then...we all chilled, and i just got back from hanging out with them. its cool to get a new scence once in a while. i was so use to waupuca and now that i got some new things to do and new love intrest...waupuca doesnt even cross my mind. thank god i tell ya....
so everything is good and omg...rachel is back...fucking awesome i tell ya...

i guess things like to look up sometimes, even in your hardest times...

weekend events

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 20:12:19 GMT

so this weekend was intresting, i didnt have to work all weekend. thank buddah. friday spent the whole day with K and Mark, then hung out with ashley for a while. then we left and went to rapids to meet Robby and we all went to Nightmare. which was the same ol thing. but it was good seeing Robby again. i missed that kid alot. anyways, then saturday, i slept most of the day because we didnt get back till 2 something saturday morning. then waking up like around 3 saturday and just kinda sitting here doing nothing, around 7:30ish Sam came online and asked if i wanted to go do something in Point because he was bored. so i went along, and we ended up going to Jakes house, his older brother, and there was a big party over there. it was mostly older people, like in their 20s, but there was a girl there who was 18 so i didnt feel so young. well after meeting mostly everyone. and getting a beer, Jake thought it would be funny to buy me a million shots and watch me take them all and get totally plastered. so i did. hey he was buying thats all that mattered. so im totally drunk at this party, knowing really no one. but what i remember...haha it was fun, and hes having one this coming up weekend for halloween and that time im staying there cuz the ride home sucked...even though i didnt drive. but man...im pacing out my shots next time...i took too many at one time. and im paying for it today...ive been puking non stop all day today...but ive stopped now, thank god...cuz i hate puking, ive lost like 5 pounds just this morning. yay...not really. anyways...i guess you have to pay for a good time. but this week will be fun, its halloween week, and K is coming back down on thursday again, and i get paid lol...so this week should be good...i had fun this weekend...i needed that...

out*

so so

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 01:12:58 GMT

so im excited.
tomorrow k is coming down for a short visit.
it kinda wont be the same without nick...*sigh*
but hopefully it still will be fun...
im sitting here biting my nails im so excited.
i need some fun...i need some get away.
and having the day off friday makes me even more happier...ahhh
im excited...hopefully amy will find some lovin...lol

out*

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 00:41:02 GMT

so im a determined girl here...
i want to get a whole better job then i have now so i can move out by Jan. and get my own place. it would be so much better for me. i wouldnt have the pressure of my parents and "other" stuff. and i could do whatever i wanted.
so i got a credit card today. well i filled out shit for it and sent it out...im so excited to get it lol.
im excited for this weekend and next too. K is coming again and once again ill have some fun time. and maybe ill meet someone ;) hehe
i need to have some girl fun, its been way to long and after all this court shit...i need a major break! ive been doing a whole better with it though. i dont think about it THAT much anymore...but it still crosses my mind. bah. i cant let it get to me though. if something is meant to work out it will, if he does go to jail, he just wasnt meant for me and my "prince charming" is still out there. lol. well after all these two next weekends of excitment hopefully...i will find some looooove out of it...hehe i pray.

out*

WANTED!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 00:42:19 GMT

WANTED: a new guy for amy. i dont want no boyfriend, fuck that...im still in a mess with the last one having a nervous breakdown because he might go to jail...well who wouldnt but that sucked the love, passion, happiness(and we were so happy) out of our at the time perfect relationship...so im left here all alone and believe me im not use to it...ive been with this kid so long and i kinda forgot what it was like to be on a break with someone...so hmmm what can i do? i can sit at home and wonder why this ever happened...OR! i can go out and have as much fun as possible! yea that sounds good...ok so amy needs some lovin...

out*

emotions

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 04:24:08 GMT

every single thing you say makes me want to run away, sometimes love's a rainy day but life goes on i guess...im that girl you can never shutup, im the one that drove you crazy, im the one who always made you laugh. in that cigarette you breath, you always blew it in my face and it drove me crazy. just to let you know something hunny, you can't get rid of me. hopefully one of these days, youll realize what a mess your life is without me...youll need me to hold you, to tell you i love you one more time. youll miss the feeling it was to fall asleep next to eachother tangled up in your sheets...youll miss driving in my jeep. youll miss me always shaking my head at you. youll miss how i always wore the same jeans. youll miss how my hair was always in the way when we tryed to kiss. you cant forget the time i lit my hair on fire, or the time you jumped on me and i kneed you in the chest...that was your fault. youll miss the feeling of waking up in eachothers eyes...well first you kiss me, then you say we're through. i say you got some issuses, some things you gotta work through...why cant you let me be there for you? why dont you want to see me? would it really kill you that much to hold me before everything is gone? does it worry you how much pain my heart is holding in...how bad my heart is broken because you pushed me away when i could help you the most. i know its hard for you, i know you dont want to hurt me...well hun what do you think your doing? so distant from you...its killing me. i feel chained, you shoved me to the ground. say you know who i am and what im about? then youll totally understand that i feel alone...i thought you were everything, i still do...i still care about you so much. i just wish you gave a damn about me. i really dont believe in love anymore, i fell for it again. now im alone like all the other times. i fell to hard, let myself out, i let you in...and now look here hunny...all alone again...on the street im waiting for something to come along, in my heart its raining so feeling isnt really an option anymore. nobody ever cared as much for me. nobodys touched my heart and healed my pain, i got to tell you, youve picked up the pieces and put me back together again...well now your gone...and all the pieces fell apart again. i knew that this moment would come in time, that id have to let go. i know you might be coming back so why am i dying inside
are you searching for words that you cant find, trying to hide your emotions but your eyes dont lie, guess theres no real easy way to say goodbye, so ill be standing at the edge of the earth, hoping that someday youll come back again, please dont misunderstand what im trying to say, i dont want to let you leave this way, i want you to know that i stand right by your side and I know that might have been the last time we see eachother for a long time, but ill be here...no matter how my heart breaks, ill be praying the day you call and realize you need me too...

shit

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 23:24:58 GMT

so the stupidest thing happened.
just when you think everything is perfect, something always goes wrong.
nick got another letter in the mail from the stupid shit going on with some crazy bitch...and now he actually has to appear in court on the 7th and he has to go get finger prints and shit. i swear im gonna kill her...she is ruining both nick and my lives...i dont know whats gonna happen, nothing might, but then again something might. i just dont wanna think about it. i just wanna see him...as much as i can.

last night was fun. i went to nicks and on the way there the craziest thing happened, i was driving on 22 on my way to waupaca and out of fucking nowhere comes this huge ass black thing sitting in the middle of the road, and i thought to myself, man that is a huge fucken dog. but then as i got closer the fucking thing stood up on its hign-legs and looked straight at me. it was a fucken black bear. i nearly pissed my pants. then it ran away into the field across the road. i cant believe i saw a wild bear...to me its crazy.
well after all that excitment, when i got to nicks, nick, me, mark, and wally watched the amityville horror, and it was some freaky shit...so i enjoyed my last night...got alot of things off my mind...

out*

blah...

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 02:21:09 GMT

so this weekend rocked!
it was the best.
k came back and it was just like old times.
theres no way to really descibe it but it was awesome.
we all partied and had fun.
good times i tell ya...
well im off

out*

so f-ing excited...

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 00:07:06 GMT

so today was totally slow...
it was my day off and i did nothing.
tomorrow i have to work, but its supose to rain, so im not totally sure...
but i get paid tomorrow so im happy, and tomorrow is wed. and that means its one day before seeing my kristina. im so f-ing excited.
not as much as she is though, i talked to her spo long last night.
we have our weddings planned...lol...yay for us we finally dont have assholes for boyfriends...we actually have ones that care...knock on wood.
so my dad bought me an ashtray today so i dont throw my cigs in the driveway. so nice of him, and i bought a pack with some of my left over $$$ and then my uncle when out and bought me a pack for taking him to the store...so im rolling in the cancer sticks...i swear im gonna be dead before im 20...
oh well...
i really need to get a hold of my boyfriend and let him know the details about thursday...maybe if id call him lol...im too lazy.
well i need a cig, i havent had one in a while...so im gonna go have one...
only one more day!!! yay!

out*

shit

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 04:14:45 GMT

so im sitting here at home for once.
im about to go have my last cig of the night.
im so fucking excited for thursday.
kristina is coming down from mich. and im going to pick her up in appleton.
yay! i say yay!
so my boyfriend finally got his fucken car registered. bout f-ing time kid.
lets just hope he doesnt back into anymore cars...haha love it.
so i got pulled over after work today for my expired liscence plates lol. they have been expired since march 05....geez cops are stupid that they just noticed now, but i only got a warning...then the cop tryed stealing my liscence...bastard. pigs.
im so excited for this weekend...the four of us will be together again! yay!
and we will be all wasted and wont remember a thing. yay for parties!
yay for no school.
but i still have to work lol. ill go to work drunk. or with a hangover. oh well. its not like no one else at work does it cuz they all do. even my manager. geez. what are ppl coming to these days.
speaking of that, what the fuck is up with plainfield. alot of crazy shit.
everyone has changed so much. i swear the last of us seniors that are too lazy or couldnt afford a big expensive college or where just not smart enough that are left are the only sane ones here now...our old school sounds like its going to hell...makes me wish i was back, but then...i think...and i laugh...i would never wanna go back there...i hate everyone left there and its highschool...once your gone...your gone...
well now that im done ranting on everything...
im gonna go have that cig and take some pain killers cuz my back hurts...

out*

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 02:05:00 GMT

"your an alexander, our names not big, and we dont have the best houses, cars, or any junk like that, but we always know where to come home too, and no matter what comes along our family always pulls through, dont worry, youll make it, and im always here when you need me"

little adive from my brother...
gotta love him even though hes an alcohlic...

aimes is out*

blah

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 19:00:43 GMT

so im tired...
just woke up...
i need a cig bad...
im at nicks waiting for my ramon noodles bitch...
haha gotta love it...
so everything is pretty much the same...
trying to find the perfect weekend to visit K...
it prolly wont be till after nicks court date on the 20th...
but fear not K we will be there sooner or later...
and we are moving there...we are!!!! we said we would and we still will...
i need to get out of wisconsin...
well i better go...i hear footsteps coming...better be my food...

lovelovelove
aimes

wow...

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:25:29 GMT

so this summer is over...almost
i can honestly say, im gonna miss it.
i know now its over when your best friend is gone for college, and all there is, is talk about school...which i dont have to go back to, well until next year...but thats not for a year.
this summer has been the best ever. so much crazy times there has been.
its so sad it has to end...
no more late night trips to the lake.
no more stealing some random guys pattle boat...
no more skinny dipping and making out in the cold ass water at 1 in the morning...
no more cramming a ton of ppl in our cars just to get somewhere...
no more drinking until its all gone...
no more trips to the quarry and swimming all day...
no more mark hitting deers with my jeep...
no more mark and kristina beating eachother up any chance they get, they still are sooo cute...
no more watching fireworks all together...
no more driving around for hours all four of us, getting high...
no more shitty movies from movie gallery...
no more thrown together parties at kristinas house...
no more sex in kristinas van...
no more sex in kristinas moms bed...*sigh*
no more finding alcohol in olivias car and drinking it all...
no more walter being walter...
no more of sitting in nicks room all together...
no more of looking at all three of them and knowing that these are my best friends i ever had...

the summer is over...kristinas gone, mark has to go back to school, i have to work...the fun is over...until me, mark, and nick move up to michigan, which i am counting down the days as we speak...nothing will ever be the same...kristinas first semester will not end any faster...ill just have to wait till we all are back together...until then...ill have to settle with the two by myself...kristina we miss you!

summer is over, and so is our fun.
summer wind was always our song...

aimes is out*

wowo

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 02:05:26 GMT

moving out soon.
living at walters house.
fun fun.

peace out*

summer oh summer

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 02:20:49 GMT

so its been so fucken long.
maybe because i havent been home at all for the past month.
well to fill all you ppl in.

i have been practically living in waupaca for the past month with my SWEETHEART of a boyfriend. this is the only night i have been home early enough from spending time with him to go on the comp.
the past month has been the best ever. so much stuff has happened.
and all i can say is it has been all worth it.
im having a great summer, i have the best boyfriend i could ever ask for, and there has been no drama at all. thank god.

today was great.
went swimming in redgranite all day at the quarry. while we were there some random 23yr old guy started talking to me and kristina, so he chilled with us and nick for a bit and then he said hed be right back and he came back with a pack of beer. wow! i had 1...so did k...but nick...that kid drank almost all of it. he was soooo drunk...then i took him home drunk and all the way home, he wouldnt fucking stop talking...hed sit there and lay on my shoulder while im trying to drive and tell me how much he liked me and was so glad we were together...it was sweet, except the drool on my shoulder. lol...so cute.
well i owed him so much, i babysat his ass today...and he babysat me a while ago when i took a little something i never took before and i had a bad trip. so we are even now.
i cant wait till i move out soon. so he can come with me ;)
can i say...summer is awesome.
and im the happiest person ever.

aimes is out*

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 23:56:41 GMT

so im fuckin 18 bitches.
yea im excited.
i can buy my cigs legal now...
ok im still excited.
well how has my life been eventful? to tell all you about...
staying up alllllll night and then getting up at 5:30 for work...
yea and work...fuckin gay. its so tiring...
well maybe my social life is getting in the way.
so this is the first night i have stayed home in a long ass time.
ive been gone so much. going to waupca alot...
and weirdly, if i ever thought id go to waupaca this summer it would be to see cody...but i have been there so much and i havent seen him. i miss him alot...its sad to think hes never moving back.
anyways...i offically have a stalker from wauapca too...well he may not think he is, but to me he IS. i hate ppl like that...he is always calling, telling everyone im his girlfriend(when we only knew eachother for two days) fuckin creepy ass ppl now a days...he was cool at first and now hes just damn right annoying... and then when i finally find someone worth talking to and stuff, he freaks out and bitches at him and stuff...im not his property? my god...
anyways...drama...hate it. these waupca boys have more drama then our "group" in school had, and that was alot... ;)
i cant wait till work tomorrow is over...so i can go out.
i need a cig...
maybe ill go for a walk...yea sounds good...
aimes is out*

ps...rach i miss you already...bring me back some flordia sun!